I am one week into my time of renewing and developing self care routines and teaching and treating myself with self worth.

I am happy with the start. I have some basic beginning goals up and basic routine where i can see it.

I put positive affirmation in the bathroom next to the mirror.

I know have a space at home to create.

Have a ways to go on the room but for now it is feeling pretty good.

Setting myself up to make habits easier.

I find so far i do need several minutes just to wake up and get my body to wake up.

I started with a general time to wake up in wanting to get up earlier but i quickly let go because i am not a wake ip early kind of person. So i will go with what i am which is a later riser. Otherwise i realized i was setting myself up for failure.

This is my positive affirmation i repeat daily. I chose this because i believe it is one of my biggest self sabotage areas.

That top one is difficult to allow in. my entire life was about believing the lies people said to me. Of worthlessness and awfulness.

I go so far and then the old tapes creep in and sabotage happens.

I don’t treat myself well. A lot. Less than i used to but a lot.

Living with NMO it becomes even more difficult. Another layer of feeling like a failure. It is easy to feel a burden.

Our society does not set you up for success. Instead it sets you up to fail and remain in poverty and stagnate and barely meeting your needs if meeting them at all.

I don’t understand that when people talk big talk but programs just are not set for eagerness and growth. More like stay where you are and feel useless.

It is scary because a little bit of success and bam, no more help even though you can’t yet meet your needs there is no in between.

I also look to change my mindset. A lot of the worth or lack of revolves around being financially successful.

Is that really where i want to be? I am more than my financials. It is hard because money makes the world go round.

I am also embracing currently how much i do in private if that makes sense. I love people but i am a true introvert and i enjoy a very large amount of alone time or i get squirrelly. And cease to function.

Giving myself some grace and working within a framework of where i am.

My husband helps me and i feel so comfortable with him i allow myself to try things and fail and fail harder and succeed and succeed harder.

This is where i am one week in. Are working on self care? Are you treating yourself well with kindness and grace?

I live little girl blue, today’s featured art. She teaches me to act with compassion and find peace in the rough.

Until next time

Paint much love always

Connie Karleta Sales

a.k.a. This crooked little flower